TotalBiscuit talks about living with stage-4 cancer

TotalBiscuit talks about living with stage-4 cancer

Ethan: So the last thing I want to touch on is obviously You’ve had a very public battle with cancer Total Biscuit: Sure. Yeah. Ethan: It’s been going on for how long, I mean how long have you been living with cancer now? TotalBiscut: Now I’m over three years. Three, four years now. Ethan: I think honestly you’ve handled it with like great grace and optimism from from the very beginning. That’s inspired me and first of all thank you for For doing that TB: of course. E: And I think it’s been a beacon of light, I think, for a lot of people of just like seeing how you can handle it with with dignity And I know that Hila’s dealing with some- her dad… Just got recently diagnosed with cancer. We were talking about it backstage and It’s really nice to hear you being, you know, optimistic about it Basically, well, first- my first question is, cuz the last update that I was able to find was from like June or some shit TB: yeah. How’s it going? What’re- What’re the updates? TB: so basically where we are right now is that it is stabilized, meaning- It’s not gone away, but it’s not growing so there’s a couple of small tumors in my liver And there’s one very very small nodule in my lung. So it’s Stage four, which means it Spread past the initial place it was. Stage four is pretty bad. That’s when survival chances go in the toilet on October the 15th 2017- or, 2015, sorry. I was told you’ve probably got two years to live. That was two years and five days ago. Hila: That’s crazy. Ethan: Fuck cancer, dude. TotalBiscut: so fuck those odds and fuck those numbers. Ethan: Yeah. TB: But the problem with, Metabolized cancer is the- Metastasize cancer, sorry, it can go anywhere it gets in the blood it can spread to any organ. Becomes harder to nail it down. You know you can’t do targeted therapies as easily. You can’t just cut it out So it being stable at this stage is very very good because it means the therapy works And it’s continuing to work And I have fairly minimal side effects. Still got me beard, still got me ‘stache. You know? E: Well you look good You don’t look like a guy who has cancer. Hila: No. TB: Well last year I sure as hell did. You know there was ah… people were asking, I don’t know if you’d know, I did a voice back for Starcraft 2 and the photo they gave for me for that Was in black and white and people were like “Did he die? Is that why they’ve made it black and white?” Noo! I look terrible in that photo but It- you know, I- The chemo sucks of course it sucks. I have every two weeks I get plugged in on the Wednesday. I get the big dose in the Clinic and then they put me on a portable thing to take home for the rest of it until Friday So I’m pretty much like out of action for two days And then it takes about two days to really get back on my feet You know? Ethan: What is that experience like- I feel like this conversation doesn’t exist anywhere. Hila: Yeah. Ethan: Of someone with cancer talking about what it’s like. Hila: I can’t believe that you go through this every two weeks and you’re… Managing to keep everything going. Ethan: Yeah, It’s incredible. TB: Yeah, I mean one- I don’t see another option. You know it’s like Everyone has a job, everyone had to do their job. E: It just shows an incredible amount of strength. TB: It’s, you know, my job, so huge motivator for me. You know I’m proud of what I do And I enjoy it and I know that I’m very blessed to be able to do it as a career right so I want to Take every opportunity I can to do it. That’s why I’m out here with Twitchcon. That’s why I’m going to Blizzcon You know I want to take Joy in that and I get a lot of satisfaction out of it and that also means I want to be back on my feet As quick as possible, so you know I look at it, and I say right okay? I’ve got ten- if I… if I can get back on my feet I got ten Good days and four bad days every two weeks, and you know what that’s okay. I’d rather have 14 Good days, but I can’t have 14 good days. So I’ll take ten. That’s okay and I mean the experience of actually being on the therapy itself I mean It essentially turns you into a zombie. It’s one of the best ways to describe it. I mean it’s your whole body is in pain Just constant aching. There’s a feeling of sickness although that varies on a person-to-person basis I get a subdermal injection right here It’s quite new. They only just started doing this and it’s a gel and it slowly goes into your bloodstream Oh, it costs about five days, and it’s an antiemetic so it’s an anti-nausea Gel it knocked the nausea on the head in a really good way like you still feel a bit sick But I used to like throw up like eight times, ten times a day, like, until I was just throwing up stomach acid E: That’s gonna be really… TB: It just burned It was nothing but burning. E: That part of chemo has got to be really Difficult to the healing process right? TB: Yeah E: The whole thing of nausea and puking. TB: Yeah, it fucks you up badly. Yeah because you get massively dehydrated like that’s The advice that I give to anyone else to go through chemotherapy two things one hydrate for the love of God like drink fruit juice in particular don’t drink water drink fruit juice it gives us- E: Calories, yeah TB: Calories, sugar, really important. The taste will help you drink faster. in my case one of my side effects is I have a cold Sensitivity while I’m on the pump so if I drink something too cold it can shut my throat and kill me. E: Oh my god TB: Yeah, also if I just touch something That’s too cold nice that kind of sucks So I’ve gotta wear gloves and make sure you know stuffs at room temperature before I drink it But I found the like drinking fruit juice I can drink it a lot faster that means I can hydrate better and the other thing Is force yourself to eat You threw it up. Fuck you, eat it again. Just not the same thing obviously.E: Just don’t give up. TB: Yeah, just keep eating Dude, like because it is fuel. It lterally is fuel. It’s fuel to fight if you give up on that- Everything gives up, but every time I eat even if I don’t like the taste of it, I don’t like the feeling of eating it, About ten minutes after I’ve eaten or even as I’m eating I’ll feel this burst of energy like, it’s like, becoming awake again at least for a couple of hours. E: It’s incredible to hear that because I’ve been yeah, all of us who aren’t sick we take food for such granted right. H: And also it’s the most basic thing that you can think of. You gotta fuel yourself to continue. TB: Right, it’s so obvious until your body is screaming at you not to. H: mm-hmm. TB: And telling you I’m gonna throw that up if you do that I’m just like no you’re not I’m gonna eat it, and if I throw it up I’m gonna cook another thing and I’m gonna eat that until Something stays down because you need those- Nutrition, you need- you need that nutrition. If you don’t have it your recovery is gonna, Get longer and longer and your- your immune system is gonna, just collapse. You know. I have a surprisingly strong immune system I should have no immune system by now. my immune system is fine, and it’s taking a bit of a beating, but it’s fine A lot of people in my stage can’t even travel because it’ll kill ’em. You know, catch catch a cold ya dead. For me now, I’ve been fortunate in that they found the right combination of drugs They found a chemo that was unpleasant, but I could tolerate it and I’ve got a good oncologist who knows what he’s doing so you know, all I need him to do is keep giving me the stuff that works, and I’ll keep fighting it, and I’ll keep going and That’s the only option there is. Just to keep going. What other option is there? You just give up? No. There’s nothing else. Nothing beyond this. E: mm-hmm. TB: You’ve got to fight. Ten good days, four bad days. Even if it’s One good day, 13 bad days. That’s still one good day. E: Do you find that you’ve become more optimistic in some ways since your diagnosis with cancer? TB: In some ways. It’s hard to worry about petty shit When you’ve got you know death staring you in the face E: Do you feel like you have some knowledge that you wish you could share? Like I know, for example, to use it mildly you’ll get a flu and you’ll be like man I can’t fucking wait til I’m not sick again And then the moment you’re better you forget all about that Is there some kind of feeling that you’re always having like that that you wish you could just share, That you wish everyone could appreciate and feel is that something? TB: I mean it- Think of chemo as getting over the worst flu of your life and Feeling like you were not a real person while you had it that E: That sounds awful. TB: Like a zombie. Even trapped in your own head sometimes. Think about being so tired that you can’t watch Netflix. It’s too exhausting That- that’s what it does to you and as a result, what you’ve got to do, you get trapped in your own mind. I s- y’know, even listening to things like audiobooks. It’s like bright light. Sounds, anything, any kind of stimulus becomes scary. It’s, you know, you jumpin’ at shadows, it- it screws with your mind. It screws with your head in a big way. There’s a Fog, paranoia, it… is a really nasty thing to put in your body But ultimately you got to do it and you got to keep doing it if you want to actually overcome it There’s no easy way to do chemotherapy There’s no magical advice, but there is stuff you have to do. It’s tough it helps to have someone close by you Helps to have someone like my wife that will push me to do these things, that will say you’ve got to eat, You’ve got to drink. I don’t care what you think. Eat the fucking food Having somebody like that, having that kind of support system is essential. I don’t think I’d be alive if I didn’t have that. E: God bless her TB: Yep, dude. H: Well that’s really inspiring. TB: It is what it is, you play the hand you’re dealt, you do the best you can, you don’t give up on it You know, it’s- because it’s not just giving up on your life. It’s giving up on everyone that’s ever been touched by what you’ve done Your friends your family Pets for God’s sake you know you want to be there for them like they deserve to have you there for them the only way that that’s going to happen is if you keep fighting and It’s possible like Fuck these statistics They don’t mean anything. If you don’t like the statistics, change the stats now. Live long- outlive it. It just keep going because science is fucking amazing and they come up with new stuff every day They come up with new treatments all the time E: Do you think that chemo will be looked back on and hopefully as soon as 10 years as This like- almost like how we used to electrocute people with mental illnesses? TB: The way we look at leeches, only barbarism. because we’re killing the patient and hoping the cancer dies faster, E: right TB: It’s not a great way to do things But it’s the best thing. We’ve got right now. There’s a general first line of defense. It’s not the only thing And people should be aware of that. You know if chemo fails for us. I have a neighbor She’s had stage 4 cancer for 20 years That’s he’s currently doing immunotherapy Brand-new immunotherapy she’s doing really well on it like the tumors are shrinking. She had cancer all over her body. You’d be Shocked by what is out there, or what is being developed right as we speak. E: That’s awesome TB: And all you got to do as someone that has it, is to Give those guys a bit more time. Give them as much time as you can give them and that means putting in your effort surviving. E: Right H: Right TB: Simple as that really. E: Is there an organization that we can donate to that you in particular hold in high interest, that’s worthy of people’s money TB: I mean there’s quite a few, I- what you’ve got to watch out for with cancer in particular there’s a few that are not a good idea like, I always get upset in October because it’s Breast Cancer Awareness Month and a lot of the Companies donate to Susan- Susan G. Komen, E: Right TB: Which is a terrible organization. They they waste money on ‘awareness’ raising, they waste money all over the place, they don’t give to research and they sue other charities. They’re a disgusting organization. Absolutely horrendous, E: So where do we send money? TB: Yeah, you can send money to a local Research Hospital. You’d be surprised how helpful that can be, you can donate directly to your local research hospital. E: Look up L.A- like I would if it’s me, Just L.A. cancer institute. Boom, here’s my money. TB: There will be a- there will be a link to donate to them like that one going directly towards the fight E: You’ve got these huge organizations like American cancer- cancer TB: Society E: Society or whatever, and I’m like if I give them five thousand bucks What- where’s it go? Where’s that money going? TB: Yeah, it’s always good to look on Charity Navigator You know it’s a very good site for figuring out Where the money is going and look at the breakdown look at how much is going to research versus administrative cost versus awareness. As far as I’m concerned, should be going to research. E: Right. People know about cancer. TB: Yeah, people- they do E: We’re good on awareness. TB: Yeah, there’s still some things that would be good I would like to see there be a bigger push to get- there- for younger men, especially when they have symptoms to go and get checked. This is what I said when I first got diagnosed I, you know, I had colon cancer. It’s embarrassing, you don’t want to do it, at this age nobody thinks they’ve got colon cancer. E: We were talking backstage It’s like in America. They don’t even recommend you get a finger up the ass until you’re like 50. TB: Now that wonderful experience at like 28 or whatever, but ultimately yeah, it’s fucking embarrassing, you know it’s more embarrassing? Dying. That’s pretty shitty yeah, shitting yourself when you die, maybe some- E: Some people, some people can do it- well, nevermind. it’s yeah, but Ultimately people have to take their own health seriously, and if they see symptoms for the love of God Please please if it’s nothing fucking celebrate the fact that it’s nothing. E: sure. TB: Okay, you just went through some unpleasant shit you maybe you got a colonoscopy or a finger up your ass, big fucking deal, You’re gonna have to have it sooner or later E: Yeah, TB: it’s gonna have to happen. So you might as well get it E: Finger up the ass or death? TB: Yeah, pick one. E: I’d get fingered all day boy. TB: I think it’s a pretty obvious choice. E: I think that’s actually really important and To raise that awareness. TB: Yeah, take your own health seriously. E: I mean, just go to the fucking doctor. I’m- I think we’re all guilty of prolonging- TB: we absolutely are. E: you know, it’s like, but man- You got to take care of your shit. TB: You do ultimately. I could have been a way better position if I had and I didn’t because I was embarrassed E: Is that right? TB: Yeah. E: How long did you have symptoms but didn’t go to the doctor? TB: About a year. E: Really a year? TB: Yeah, it’s like because there’s a bunch of other explanations for it, you always assume. Oh, it’s something else, It’s my diet. E: May I ask what symptoms, or is that too personal? TB: I mean, I’ve told people about it You’re in my initial video. You know it’s- we’re talking about shit like, you know, we had cold stool, rectal bleeding, You know the kind of thing is like, you see blood you’re still like oh, Maybe I just had a, you know, a raw steak. You know rare steak or whatever, E: off you rationalize it away TB: Yeah, I mean I thought I had IBS. I thought I’d maybe even Crohn’s. You know what something like that. Yeah or Diverticulitis, I didn’t think I had colon cancer. You know you always assume, “It’s not cancer. It’s something else.” E: “I’ll be fine” TB: Yeah, and then you- yeah, you prolong it like, you know, this is uncomfortable it’s fine, and then you’re eventually like alright. I’m gonna go Find out if I have Crohn’s or whatever, no, I was like now you have colon cancer like well. That’s shit. E: Yeah TB: I probably should have gone earlier. You know, and anybody- if you have a symptom like that Don’t fucking ignore it. Don’t- yeah, it’s embarrassing, get over it, go to a doctor for the love of God you know save yourself a shit ton of pain later on. E: right Is there something about cancer that, like, you came to learn from going through it that most people don’t know? TB: It- There’s no feeling of having it Like right now if you asked, like, “Do you feel like you have an illness?” No, I mean- H: that’s what’s really, Talking to my dad now he can’t confront the fact That he’s so ill, because it doesn’t feel it. He has a really bad cough. When he doesn’t it feels- it feels completely normal. Yeah, I don’t know I have a tumor. I can’t feel that I have a tumor in my liver or in my lung That’s- that doesn’t impact my daily life. You know there’s probably some pain there, but you know I’m on painkillers, it’s probably just buried there somewhere and The weird thing is I guess you know people view cancer as this Thing which will, you know, turn you into a desiccated husk immediately when you’ve got it and completely destroy your life No, it really doesn’t and that’s actually scarier. E: mmm TB: Cuz you know you’ve got a cut on your arm And it’s bleeding, you can see, “I’ve been wounded” and you have a response to that You got something inside you that might be silently eating away at you You don’t- you don’t even feel it’s there, E: You don’t have that pain response. TB: No. It’s disturbing. It’s It’s insidious And obviously a lot of it comes down to the fact. You don’t feel it before either You don’t feel it before the diagnosis, but you still don’t feel afterwards either. You only feel everything around it You know the side effects of the chemo. The pain from, say, You know, the fact that I’ve had an abdominal hernia for years from the surgery You know, collapsed muscle wall, things like that, no. No yeah, you have to take painkillers to just manage that and stay functional. E: mm-hmm TB: but The actual disease no, it’s just there. It’s invisible. E: Mmm. TB: That’s creepy as fuck. E: That is fucking weird Do you ever feel like irrationally angry at your own body for trying to kill you? TB: Totally. E: It’s like fuck off TB: Yeah, I think it was quite healthy, like, being able to visualize it as a thing you can fight Is much better than having it be a thing you don’t understand E: right TB: And a lot of people do that, that’s like- It’s recommended even. E: you have an enemy you identify. TB: You have an enemy you can see, you can imagine what it looks like you can imagine what you have to do to defeat it. Versus something you don’t understand spreading throughout your body without any… what- you know- without you even noticing and with there being no solid easy Take this pill, and you’ll get better option E: sure TB: That’s- that’s- that’s scary I don’t think about it that way though. You know- I viewed as the enemy ever since I got it. I view it as something beatable because it is, you know ,and every time we get a scan And we see it’s either shrunken or not got bigger like we’re winning you know E: It seems like you’ve been fighting it Successfully for a long time you’ve beat the odds, and it seems that every is update. It’s- it’s- Good news, or at least not bad news. TB: Yeah, exactly. You know, see at least not bad news is good You know, you’d love that miraculous remission. Where it’s just you coming. It’s gone but I’m facing all the reality that that’s probably not gonna happen and You just gotta kind of live with it, you know I know I’m gonna need this treatment indefinitely. E: Do you think that, that, kind of uh Personifying it as the enemy is has been one of the keys to your Fighting it successfully. TB: I think so. E: Mentally and physically TB: mentally such- so important it It sounds like a cliche It’s not. I know it is 90% mental because that’s what drives everything else it drives your ability to fight it physically it drives your ability to rehydrate and to want to get better and to make sure you eat and fuel your body and All that sort of thing to get up and not skip that treatment this way It’s like I could not go in because I know it’s gonna hurt. E: You’ll be fine, TB: But I’ll go in line. Yeah, exactly. E: Scary. TB: That’s the scary thing, you’ll feel fine. E: I’ll skip it and I’ll feel fine. TB: Yeah, and what if I just skip the next one as well like, E: That’s fucked up H: mm-hmm, TB: but you- but you get up, You know, get up at 9:00 a.m.. On that Wednesday. I go in they do the blood test I know I’m there to get a needle and they plug it in right there. E: I can see. TB: you know plug it into the port Goes in there stays in there for two days. They rip it out. Take salene as they flush it, you know, to make sure that it’s clean and then you do all over again and you’ve got to just keep doing it because if you tap out on that that’s it because This ain’t gonna give up. This is gonna keep trying to kill you E: mm-hmm. TB: So you have to keep fighting it back You can’t just give it a break E: Is there something… I noticed you saying something about like you I mean do you appreciate time in a different way because I? Something you said this truck with me is like I get ten. Good days and four bad days, and that’s enough for me Do you have a different appreciation for time? TB: Yeah. It was like, you know, when we were talking earlier about Would I go back and, you know, redo a video or change the way that I criticize those things I think a lot of that came from that directly. It’s like, I can do a limited number of videos less than I used to be able to do I can work less than I used to be able to do I can play less than I used to be able to do so let’s make sure that time counts for something a Lot of it is also You assume at this age. You’ve got wow I’ve got 50 60 years of the family What if you didn’t? Well, you know, you don’t know how long you’ve got so You know, made me want to try and be a better dad. There’s no doubt about that You know I wanted to connect more with my stepson And then I have and I’ve been doing that I wanted to connect more with my wife Make sure that we get a good. You know we get a good run out of it I intend to be around when I’m fucking 100 years old. We’ll be still bitching about video games if I can be but Sometimes there might be something outside of my control you know maybe Fighting isn’t enough Maybe that’s just not enough to keep going But if that’s the case then you’ve got to make sure that you spend the time you’ve got In the best way you can and even then it’s not like It changes you overnight like you still want to go read Reddit comments, You still want to bitch at people on Twitter, like you can’t change your habit of a lifetime But there’s something at the back of your mind. It said do you have something better to do? You know and maybe that- that does change you over time I think E: hmm well Thanks for sharing that with us, and thanks for spending your time. Especially here with us. I mean I really appreciate it TB: I enjoy it. It’s great to be out here, I get out here so rarely You know as much as I love the greenness of North Carolina Sometimes the smog of L.A. is a wonderful place to go. E: Right, yeah, for sure

100 thoughts on “TotalBiscuit talks about living with stage-4 cancer

  1. TB wanted people to see this clip to encourage anyone out there with any concerning symptoms to see a doctor. We're extremely grateful for TotalBiscuit coming and sharing his time with us and being an inspiration. Appreciate your time on this planet my friends! Love you all.

  2. R.I.P. John Bain. I lost my dad to cancer around the same time you dropped out. Watching You really inspired me to not look at him as a walking corpse. That he could get better, and he could overcome. I miss you both dearly.

  3. Stage IV cancer here. My wife was told that I would die soon around June 2015. I started Immunotherapy November 2015 and am still here. He talks about Immunotherpay around the middle mark. Hopefully, like his neighbor, I'll be around for a long time. Chemotherpy was the absolute worst. Get checked out. Seriously, cancer doesn't discriminate.

  4. I wish we had the ethan of today doing this podcast. He is a much better interviewer. Still a great clip.

  5. My grandmother just died of stage 4 cancer yesterday, cancer is fucking lame. RIP TotalBiscuit gone way too young.

  6. He's so brave, I wouldn't take the Chemo, I probably just say fuck it, sell everything, get loans and go crazy for a couple of weeks doing whatever I want then jump out the Window 🙁

  7. Total Biscuit: Yes, I have cancer

    Ethan: I actually know exactly what you're going through, because someone I know, knows someone with cancer.

    Ethan is an intolerable human being

  8. Honestly I used to watch Totalbiscuit's videos. since then i haven't stopped. Yet now when i watch any videos i just think ''Man if i just heard his intro one more time'' then have to know i will only do so if it's from the past. just hits me hard each time. But watching this let me know who the man was outside of reviews. He was incredibly strong. I see why it took years for his condition to claim him. He always refused to give up. I have a relative with stage IV Cancer and i see her fight every day and you honestly can't tell. Even with her mental state. So strong And i don't ever think i could be that tough. As much as i wish that Cancer didn't take John he did so much for so many. I don't even know if he knew the true impact he would have on us. To anyone with cancer. Never surrender.

  9. Got my ass proped today and they didnt find anything, already got the test results and im do relieved… After nearly two years of those nasty symptoms i turned out to be a lucky Bastard… Rip mr biscuit and thanks for helping me to gather thr courage to go to the doctors, thank you!

  10. I watched this after my dad passed away from lung cancer, was following TB for few years, we were both born in 1984. My dad was given 10 months upon diagnosed in stage 4, funny thing is that we live in Poland and the survival rates are the very same here than in US or other most rich countires, the treatment here is the same so I guess all developed countries are on the same level nowdays, why aren't we moving forward? we are spending tons of cash on bul…t stuff instead of investing in research and development of ultimate cure for cancer

  11. Total Biscuit was a hero. I don't take that term lightly but like my mother who died tragically 3 weeks after her diagnosis from pancreatic cancer, they both stared it in the face, said fuck you, and fought. Its not how long you fight or if you beat it, its the decision to fight that makes you a hero for those who will suffer in the future. My mother had a 1% chance to live 2 weeks and she lived 3 weeks. Keep fighting people. Rip to all those who we have lost.

  12. My grandma sadly past after her 2nd fight with breast cancer, she had chemo but, was still there in the head. She never talked much about the headache of fighting cancer and hearing a YouTube I barely knew except his "wtf is…..?" Series and, hearing his hard battle hits so close to home but also hearing a different side of the story hurts. Rest your soul TotalBiscuit.

  13. This was about a half year before his death.
    Heartbreaking to hear how the sickness even changed his voice. The one thing we all knew him by.
    Rest in peace – You'll be missed.

  14. Cancer treatment is so messed up it's like let's use deadly radiation and drugs on you that will damage you and hope that it kills the cancerous cells before it kills you.

  15. everything he said about getting checked is so spot on. I lived with EXTREME pain in my left calf muscle for 2 years, when I finally had the courage to see the doctor about it turns out I had a tumor the whole time, luckily it was benign(thank god) and I got it taken care of but moral of the story is go get checked if you think it could be anything, no matter what. Rest in Piece to a real one

  16. I just wanna say, About a year after I watched this podcast when it was aired, I noticed a persistent pain in my balls. I ignored it for a few months but then remembered this podcast. I remembered what John said about not waiting and how "fucking dying" is a lot worse than being embarrassed. So I decided to get it checked out. I got a couple ultrasounds and was pretty much instantly diagnosed with testicular cancer. A week after that I had surgery to have it removed. 6 Months later and I'm cancer free. I really do think it was John who kind of snapped me into reality and gave me the courage to get it looked at. John and this podcast might have seriously saved my life.

  17. My father died of cancer and he dealt with it basically the same way except he didn't do a lot of what you suggested. He didn't have the will power or the people to support him and I feel bad for him and maybe it was some what my fault but it doesn't matter. Cancer is a bitch.

  18. Rest In Peace, friend of friends. The likes of you are rare amongst us, may we all aspire to be so generous and kind. Though you may have passed on to whatever is beyond your memory shall never be forgotten, you will always be an inspiration to all of us as to what a gaming journalist should be, what a friend should be, what a person should be. Though the many never knew you as anyone more than a face on a screen or a line of text in a message you will be missed as if you were a friend.

  19. My dad was diagnosed with a secondary cancer. Essentially he was given 2 months to live. He sat me down with my brother and told us this. That was 20+ years ago. His stomach lining was covered in cancer cells. No chance of living. Tomorrow I'm meeting my family… and my dad, for his 75 birthday breakfast. Just the icing on the cake.. He never went through chemo. He chose to eat well, ride his bike every day and mentally battle it.. I can't tell you it was a homerun because it hurt me so bad. But at least I still have my dad. About 15 years ago they were able to say that all the cancer was gone and he was ok. It still makes no sence to me because of the aggressive/evil way cancer attacks.. but I still have my dad

  20. What if Total biscuit's death is a direct result of a Portlandia skit? 
    It's the beets……. uh, actually no it's not.

  21. Support the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society… The money really does go to get PTs access to life saving care, and they are a amazing foundation.

  22. Anyone who has cancer should look into Dr. Burzynski research, it may save yours or a loved ones lives. 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

  23. I'm currently going through reacuring testicular cancer. This time it is a tumor 22cm in my abdomin I am a 26 year old man. I have to have 3-4 cycles of BEP chemo and I could have potentially avoided all of this by going to my follow ups after the first testicular cancer.

    In 2015 after a simple operation to remove a testicle I buried my head in the sand for 4 years. Now I have to have chemotherapy. Don't do what I did. Go to your follow ups even if your clear for 3 years

  24. Every time i see this clip I start to tear up and cant get past the first minute. TotalBiscuit is a saint. I've loved everything hes done. RIP and still having feels in 2019.

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